What terrible company, with zero apologies.

This is an ode to Underoath (I will no longer be ashamed of my taste in music! I don't care if you hate it, I LOVE it!) and their new album.

Their previous album, Define the Great Line, was one that I took to heart. I am a Christian, and so is Underoath, so a LOT of their songs really hit home. They used beautiful language to explain and express so many struggles and disappointments in regards to one's self that I could completely relate to.

On their new album, Lost in the Sound of Separation, I have really only heard one song thus far ("Desperate Times, Desperate Measures"), but I already LOVE it. The lyrics are as follows:

I've been crawling around around in the dark for a while
Spread out across the floor, not collecting dust anymore
Define me a parasite, define my host
Trapped beneath the floor, I slowly waste away
I pull my frail body into a chair, and look me in the face
I'm disappointed, so disappointed
This will be my last one, it's gonna be good and hard
It might be a touch out of key, a touch out of key
When this thing breaks, I will be you, you will be me
I'll pray that this is really happening
When this thing breaks, I will be you, you will be me
Let's hope this is short lived and riddled with disease
Oh God, the noise this is ringing in my ear, it's so unclear, so unclear
I hear them talking, but can't make out the words
Speak up, speak clear
I hear them talking, but can't make out the words
Speak up, speak clear
Where have I been?
What terrible company, with zero apologies
My God, where have I been, where have I been when I sink to the bottom?
I'll sing out as it fills with water
I hope I've done enough
I'm worn out, I'm worn thin, I will never break through
Let me out, let me out

I just know what it feels like to be so disappointed with the person I am and the acts I've committed. Underoath seems to have a knack for putting the things I feel relatively regularly into words and melodies (and for those of you who aren't familiar with me, music is my main escape from reality, pain, fear, anxiety, etc.). I just think their music is liberating. I know it's cheesy and cliche, but it's truly how I feel. I'm not trying to be 'trendy', and to be perfectly honest I hate the way society classifies everyone into categories ('emo', 'scene', 'prep', 'goth', etc.). I am me, and this is who I am and how I feel and think. I am done with trying to be something I'm not. I am done killing myself to act and look how certain people want me to act and look. From the cold years of middle school with the heartless comments of my peers, I have slowly learned to love myself for who I am. I know now that I don't need to impress anyone. As long as I am happy, that is what matters. Don't get me wrong, I have NOTHING against constructive criticism (I have heard a saying of something to the effect of 'the people who tell you [reasonable] things you need to improve are the people who care about you the most') and I see nothing but positivity surrounding one trying to improve who he or she is as a person. But I am done trying to change how I look and quiet my loud demeanor.

Ok that turned out to be a lot longer, darker, and somewhat more 'profound' than I originially intended. My bad.

But anyway, go listen to some Underoath.